The Way 🇰🇪

Dear Jesus
It’s now been three years of following You
And I’m already running out of words to pray
The more I try to, the less I say
I cannot seem to get through to You
You won’t pick on my speed dials so to say
It’s like You’ve been ignoring my calls lately
But maybe I do deserve that consequently
Because I didn’t always pick up for You
We have the most on and off relationship
I feel like I’m speaking to a giant wall
Down on my knees when I rise or fall
I’m sinking, puking from pills, trying to leave
But I still get so dry when I heave
I guess it’s really hard talking to You
All I feel is shame when I come to You
Maybe Your Grace really did find me
Maybe just a little too late for me
I know You don’t expect me to be perfect
You’ve never ever asked that of me
So why are You half as active in me
As the devil has been all around me
But I get it, You are God and I’m not
You’ve got all the answers and I don’t
So I’m gonna keep on waiting on You
It’s all out of my hands, but in Yours, it’s not.
P.S: I Trust You