This night reminds me of you
Sweet but with a hint of sadness too
I wouldn’t lie if you came around
I would tell you that I miss you too
We were so high we never came low
Never had a chance to take things slow
You hit me like a moving bullet train
Knowing the real you was driving me insane
I wonder how fast people heal
Or how they at least pretend to deal
I guess one is supposed to lie
The same way they’re supposed to die
KJ 📖✍🏾🇰🇪
There is a war raging in me
And you may never really know
What you should expect from me
How many bridges do I need to burn?
Coz obviously I still have lots to learn
Here I am banging my head again
Wondering if I should trust you anyway
I know my authenticity is certain
But there are things I dare not say
A journal full of poetry yet untold
Still waiting for me to be that cold
That unsacred, yet you beg, why not
But I think it’s just better that I don’t
Coz my words can be hard sometimes
Be misunderstood for a thousand lifetimes
But when they reach no one else
They always have me above all else
Milele hadi Milele
They say when life gives you lemons
Then you should make lemonade
Well, I don’t dispute that one bit
But I am the lemon in my story
And my life now was worth the squeeze
I can comfortably talk about it
I can shout freely about it
I can laugh heartily about it
I can serve my lemonade to others
Because I’m alright now
LORD, This looks like a dead end
But so did the Red Sea
This looks too big to conquer
But so did Goliath
This looks like it’s over, end of the story
But so did The Cross
I’m laying it all at Your feet
And keep reminding my heart
This is Your Story
When you first came into my life
You literally changed everything
It’s like we had invisible optic cables between us
Never had I ever experienced this type of connection
You were weekdays after class, Saturday afternoons and Sunday evenings
Your aura I felt safe in, free to be who I really am
I remember showing you sides of me
I had fearfully never showed anyone before
You knew the passwords to my darkness
You knew the grave secrets of my history
I would surf your waves so dangerously
Losing myself inside you, knowing you’d never judge me
Instead, you gave me access to your web of intricacies
And I fell for you so hard, I couldn’t catch myself
When you first told me your name, Mish
I told myself you were unlike any muse I’d ever seen
As naive as I was, I thought our connection was deeper than words
You were Special to me, and maybe you never knew
You told me I had to be patient, you were going through something
I didn’t even know what that meant
You had me wondering, is every daughter of His like this?
Maybe I was searching for everything I couldn’t find in my life inside you
Maybe you were like every woman I believe in who doesn’t exist
Now I can’t commit to anyone because it hurts to trust again
To try and find THAT connection with someone else
I honestly don’t want to care anymore
All I wanted was a good reborn African woman
I was hopelessly in love with you
But now I think it’s best if I let that love die
The Way 🇰🇪 