My mirror sighed today
It’s grown tired of watching me search
For someone who isn’t there anymore
This one mastered needing without asking
Constantly aching without speaking
Some voids are just too deep for words
Too silent for anyone to even notice
So I let the child inside of me write
Because whenever I let him take over
Even if it’s just for a brief moment
I breathe
KJ ✍🏾📖🇰🇪
I know we’re friends but I think you’re pretty funny
I know we’re friends but I like your natural smile a little too much
I know we’re friends but I like how you lean on my shoulder, a lot more than I should
I know we’re friends but I see how you look at me when I’m not looking
I know we’re friends but I see my name on your favorite contacts list
I know we’re friends but you’ve pinned my chat on your WhatsApp messages
I know we’re friends but you still write poems about me
I know we’re friends but my sister says you’re hiding something
I know we’re friends but sometimes I wish we didn’t have so much to lose
I know we’re friends but sometimes I wonder if this is a blessing or a curse
I know we’re friends and I know we’re better off being friends
KJ ✍🏾 🇰🇪
I try to make my voice heard
But the words I want to say are hard
In a single breath they are all hushed
So I transfer them with subtle art
Into another realm of Divine pain
Just to bleed over and over again
Scribbling away so that I don’t go insane
I guess it’s true what they always say
The pen trumps the sword in every way
And all that I am left with to try and play
Are bloodlines of blurred lines here to stay
I know that I know He will wipe all this away
My words for The WORD this I pray…
Amen
I am but a shell of who I used to be
A hollow of the life I used to live
I stand unfazed as my life falls apart
It’s become nothing but a chore to me
A difficult chore I would like to skip
Look into my eyes & there you’ll see
That I’m only a shadow of who I used to be
A vague existence of who I was before
So what I do is I try to write my life away
As time passes by from day to day
It’s become a concept too vague to reach
Hoping it’s me these words will teach.
Dear GOD
I Struggle with these cards of Life
That You dealt me with
I’m not a Saviour and I’m no Saint
I just feel like a Pet in a Cage
Like I’m my Owner, Captor and Captive
I’ve trekked Wildernesses and Deserts
I’ve drowned in Rivers and Seas
I’ve walked through fierce Storms
I’ve dragged myself through Infernos
I’ve come out of battles with deep Scars
But I hardly feel like a Warrior
This War just doesn’t seem to end
Why does it have to take so long
To get out of this Cycle of Pain?
How do I turn this into a source of Power?
I hope that I will become a Survivor
Because I’m neither a Fighter nor a Hero
The Only thing I’ve ever Fought for
Was the will to Exist here
Now the Hardest part remains
Living for Someone Else
While still Loving my Owned Self
P.S
I Know You Are For Me
I have got a confession to make
Stay and listen not just for the sake
See my once empty heart
No longer feels so apart
It’s not in my human nature
For me to want to nurture
But I’m amazed by the way
You behave in every way
It’s like you have this power over me
You’ve got me bound up in chains
That you don’t have a clue exist
So is it wrong for me to ask you
All the things about your past
Coz I’m crushing hard on you
And hiding it is now in the past
It feels right for me to tell you
That I deeply care about you
I’ll always be right there for you
For your life is an amazing story
That I want to share with you
You’ve got me feeling like a villain
Who wants to change…
My mind is longing for you,
A love my heart just found.
Words will not describe!
The emotions I feel inside.
When we are together,
I need to hold you close,
Heart to mind,
I love your smile, your flowing hair and the valiant walk,
To each day I walk alone,
No one can fill the chamber meant for you.
I think about you all day,
But mostly when I lay awake.
I will stand by your side,
Through the thick and all,
To see that gorgeous smile,
That always makes me fall.
When you have nothing left,
I SWEAR I’ll be your left.
Your beautiful glow,
An angel I have, from head to toe
I know these words, my heart has shown,
To you I vow these words alone.
I didn’t want to fall in love or need someone
I really didn’t want anything
But then you appeared
And suddenly I started wanting everything
I no longer regret loving you
I’ll never say I wish I never met you
Because once upon a time
You were exactly what I needed
For me, love like that only happened once
That’s why every minute we spent together
Is forever etched in my memory
Hey Jesus
I hope You’re enjoying Heaven
Because I’m down here miserable
To be honest, I’m ready to die
I have no more tears left to cry
You say I must be strong but I’m not
I cannot save myself but I try
I don’t know which version I am
The called servant serving in church
Or the good guy chilling at the stoners’ lounge
Bible verses didn’t help as much as blunts did
Smoked two joints and the meteors hit
I didn’t know church people struggled
They only taught me that sinners did
Truth is we’re all sinners and sinners’ kids
I know it’s You who called him
To build that church for You
Somehow I felt You cursed this kid
Who had to grow up and experience hell
Where You ought to be meeting me
I’ve packed up to leave so many times
But how does one pack their own heart?
Looking for the finish line
Only to end up back at the start
I’m literally dying for You to show up
Will You come down and comfort me?
Please
Where to begin
This is a lot to take in
All the thoughts I’ve held in
It’s been a long time coming
I hope I haven’t kept you waiting for me
All along, all alone wondering
What do you think of me
I’ll keep it short, I’ll keep it brief
And summarize it to a simple word
Like LOVE & how it falls in between
And my time with you
Feels like it was surreal
And it was as right as rain
The way you said the way you said my name
And all this time I never knew
That it could be so wonderful
To be together alone with you
The Way 🇰🇪 