Depression is silent
You never hear it coming
Then all of a sudden it becomes
The loudest voice in your head
I get so lost in where I want to go
That I forget where I am is already a miracle
How can I be so cruel to myself
When I’m doing the best I can
Life is short so I’m gonna enjoy it
But eternity is long and I won’t stop preparing for it
KJ 📖✍🏾🇰🇪
I’ve got a huge secret for you
If you promise not to tell
I’m not okay and I don’t feel well
I’m so loud in my poetry
But live alone in my shell
Look at me, we’re nothing alike
And it’s not that hard to tell
I’ve got broken ribs from Christians
Who kicked me hard when I fell
Been so ever close to death
I got a whiff off its smell
It’s like I have been cursed by a witch
With a spell-binding spell
I’m struggling to stay afloat
If you can’t already tell
Wave after wave of depression
I get swept in the swells
Imprisoned in my paranoia
I’m locked in my own cell
What’s the point of living?
If life’s one living hell
You say you’ve never had depression
Oh my God, that must be amazing
Because I can’t find the root of mine
And believe me I’ve been tracing
I wake up and my mind starts pacing
I hate it inside when people trash me
I also feel insecure when they praise me
I’m always looking to heaven like
LORD please come down and save me
They judge me for every little thing I do
I heard this about you the other day
Is it true? Is it true? Is it true?
As if somehow I answer to you
Here is a suggestion from me to you
I’ll do me and you go do you
I write poetry because it helps with the blues
I’m drowning in my thoughts again
Not sure if I will make it out alive
I broke my heart in shattered pieces
Now I feel like I just lost my mind
I don’t know how to keep on going but I’ll try
I lost my perspective, sometimes it’s hard
To see how far I’ve made it, out of the dark
Half of my world just came crushing down
And healing is the hardest part
I woke up very sad today
It feels as though I will never smile again
And I cannot fully explain to you
The source of this terrible sadness
If I could articulate what I feel
It’s like all colour was drained from earth
And the water was no longer wet
Though the sun rose, it did not shine
My lungs are breathing, but i can’t get air
What scares me the most is that lately
Everyday feels exactly the same
The Way 🇰🇪 