I wonder how the bird
Whose wings were cut off
Looks up intently at the sky
Is it with rage or with regret?
Is it with despair or with grief?
Is it with love or with peace?
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I wonder how the bird
Whose wings were cut off
Looks up intently at the sky
Is it with rage or with regret?
Is it with despair or with grief?
Is it with love or with peace?

She isnβt lost, not really
Itβs not frustration in her eyes
But a tiredness she doesnβt talk about
A certain sadness she keeps to herself
Sheβs not even telling anyone
Sheβs keeping everything inside
Letting go of the dreams she once had
Feeling stuck in a life that feels too heavy
Things happened that she did not ask for
Itβs not memories that make her sigh
Itβs the long, tiring days and empty nights
The thoughts that wonβt let her sleep
And a heart trying its best not to be bitter
When you see her sitting quietly
Know she’s not lost in her memories
Itβs the sadness and feeling lost
Still trying to figure things out
What she needs isnβt a big fix
Just someone to sit with her
Like a friendly hand in the dark
Who’ll not judge her or shame her
Reminding her that sheβs not alone
And that she matters so much too
Ken.

If you were to ask me to tell you about that one dream
I would rather take you with my poetry to see
The scars I keep trying to keep hidden within
Worlds of words that were secretly written in sin
The road to hell is paved with good intentions
Walls of brick by brick made with naive assumptions
The twisted tale of her viles full of manipulation
A torrid twist of the narcissist’s subtle evasion
She played her games with no hint of shame
Provoked me to confusion where I was left to blame
I keep replaying my footsteps on each stepping stone
Searching for the single one where I went wrong
But the ghost she said was underneath my bed
I finally found it hiding inside my head instead
Love your neighbor simply meant they’re family
Perhaps that’s why Jesus said love your enemy
But one day you’re going to grow up just like me
I pray it happens slower and better than it did to me
If writing all my feelings could reduce this pain
I wouldn’t have ended like this in sheer disdain
So this is the short story of my dream told by myself
I hope this full stop at the end doesn’t triple itself.
KJ π°πͺβπΎ

You’re never as good as they say you’re
You’re not as bad as you think you’re
All that matters
Is how you think of yourself
