I wanted her in the bluntest way
I wanted her lips, her arse, her thighs
I wanted her the way the ocean wants the shores
Constantly reaching and running back
I wanted her the way the rain wants to fall
The way the sun wants to peer past the clouds
The way words always want to be read
I wanted her to infinity, to the millionth degree
I no longer knew what the question was
But I was pretty sure she was the only answer
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I told her she looked beautiful
She laughed and asked me why
When her hair is tough like steel wool
Her skin as dark as tar
Her boobs as small as tomatoes
Her ass not as big as melons
And I wonder where she learnt
That beauty lies upon her skin
So that she thinks it doesn’t cover
Everything that she holds within her
The beauty that is pleasing to my soul
But she let the society change the way
She thinks her beauty should be defined
It breaks my heart to know that her mirror
Is how she estimates her self worth
And not this very life she touched
By simply being her own true self
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I know I shouldn’t be dazed
But have you seen that girl?
She brings the sun to it’s knees
Every single night
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I am a candle
I have been shining for a while
Whether I melt to the stand
Or if I am blown out
A thousand other candles will be lit
With the same intensity of my light
For darkness will never overcome light
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My life is not a coincidence
Nor is it a mere accident
I came in this earth for a reason
I was created for a definite purpose
That only I can fulfill
God was not just bored in Heaven
And decided to create me for entertainment
No, He sent me with an Assignment
Attached to my very own name
That’s why I’ve had stronghold after stronghold
Trying to pull my soul away from my body
Trying to keep me from unleashing my gift on earth
If I unleash my God given gift on this planet
I will not only save myself
But everything and everyone connected to me
That is why I’m totally dependent on God
Even when I believe in myself
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March 7th 2020
Today I learnt about Caroline, an epileptic or epilepsy victim. Her family had been taking care of her for long and they had reached a point where they said, “we’re tired of taking care of her. We’ve been footing her medical bills for so long and she is neither getting better nor dying”
She then had a more serious episode which made her go mad and run to the forest to live there. Her family did not look for her, they dug an open grave and were thinking of just putting a cross on it and call it when she showed up days later.
She got help from KEMRI, was able to be stable mentally, got a job as a tailor, earning her own income and is now one of the dependents in her family. She still takes her medication to this day, years down the line.
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You should learn how to dance
With the skeletons in your closet
Learn their names
So you can ask them to leave
Have coffee with your demons
Ask them important questions like
What keeps you here?
Learn what doors they keep finding open
And then kick them out
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I’m a tad bit crazy
And I’m very okay with that
I’d much rather be out of my mind
Than be trapped inside of it
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Knowing Jesus, if false, is of no importance. But if it is true, then it is of infinite importance. The only thing it can never be is moderately important. I’d rather believe in Jesus and find out that He is fake, than not believe in Him and find out later that He is so real.
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So my Uncle, dad’s last born in their family lives at home with family. He is partially impaired, effects of the great drought in the sixties when he was conceived. So I had missed home and decided to go pay a Visit. My uncle has this thing he does, when he misses me, he wears my high school sweater. So I got home nikampata ameivaa. I was so touched. Kumsalimia, aliniangalia akanipita. I followed him to the room, he is like a foot shorter than I am. When I got there, nikamsalimia tena, nikamwambia, Uncle, ni Mimi Ken. His face just lit up like a Christmas tree. He got off the bed and came and hugged me so tight. He cried on my chest. I cried too. I don’t care what you think. Then he went on this endless list of people waliotuma salamu and I just sat with him and listened. I live for such moments in this life. This is what makes me feel alive. Family.
The Way 🇰🇪 